I Don’t Look Like a Trainer

This video was posted in our private PNPTribe. It’s really good. The trainer is “soft” compared to other trainers and gets some negative comments on a page. She goes through a change to show how you can look any part you want…on the internet.

This is how I feel. I often don’t “look the part” compared to what blows up my newsfeed. I follow a lot of exercise pages to get ideas for workouts, moves, routines. It’s hard at times because I think, “Who am I to put myself out there?”

Lord knows I’m ME.

I run a 2:30-2:45 half marathon proudly. Could I train to run it faster? ABSOLUTELY. Could I do it? I believe I could. Do I REALLY want to? Not really. LOL. Why? I like to do other things while training for races. I love yoga yoga, taking dance classes, heavy leg days, walking, hiking, and a load of things.

I don’t have cuts. I used to. When I did I didn’t eat out, rarely had dessert unless it was a cheat meal, my husband and I didn’t go to Vegas much because what would I eat, and no wine. Could I drop 15lbs and have some abs and veins? SURE! I’ve done it. I just don’t need those things anymore.

I need to look good in my clothes and feel good in my bikini. I don’t need extreme weights or diets to love my life and my body. I do go through weight swings of 5-8lbs for summer but that’s just so I have drinking cushion and able to wear a bikini without my food buddha poking out when I throw down pool-side nachos on vacation. That’s just the truth.

There’s a lot about me that is not your typical internet inspiration. I’m not BEASTMODE every day. There are days I hate working out so I don’t. There are days I make myself get in my fitness because I’m just wanting to clean out closets, go shopping, catch up the housework, and get me email manageable.

I also have days I eat clean and days lunch is yogurt and a protein bar because I’m hormonal and could give a fart if I eat a vegetable.

What I do offer is me. The me you see is on IG with her crazy morning hair, no makeup, too lazy to filter and Snapseed pics, mismatched clothes, and usually at least one or two shots a week of wine.

Don’t get me wrong, sometimes I use filters on photos to work my spray tan (I’m vain about my spray), but I also post up the real me. And I’m not saying I don’t stand at the right angles and such. I do like feeling good about my pictures but I don’t obsess that a bad picture will get out! If I’m standing at an angle or straight on they are both me; just one is flattering and I like flattering. LOL

The deal is that there are times I do feel like that girl in the video. I’m insecure that my body doesn’t convey how big my heart is, how much passion I have to help women feel like I do, and how my only goal is to never leave a “fat girl” behind. I remember being 250lbs all too clear. It was a painful 20-something years and I know how good it feels now.

Being a slow runner, soon to be yoga teacher who doesn’t do any of the fancy poses, a lifter who doesn’t have ripped muscles to do flex-it-Friday, and a 7-time Tough Mudder who still needs all the help she can get on the course helps me in many ways.

I know how to not over train women learning to run. I know how to help women with chub rub to find the right clothes, lube, and gels that won’t make you shit your pants.

I know how to teach yoga without embarrassing you and how to speak to you in a way that you get what you should do with your body because you don’t speak “the language” yet. I know that if I talk to you where you are NOW you’ll stick around rather than feeling like you don’t belong.

And, I know how to write programs and teach women to lift weights. They usually have no one in life telling them how strong they truly are, what to do with their big boobs when they get in the way (I totally have this issue), and how to start lifting where they don’t feel like a spectacle in the gym. I can help them with videos giving them subs for the exercises where even the beginner video person’s stuff is still too hard.

I might not have the right body to offer the internet but I do have the heart. My heart is ripped, tanned, and in Beastmode every day.